I bet it's your love-life crisis :D (after scrolled down and read the previous posts haha!)

Don't self-pity yourself, it won't go anywhere ^^ I know sometimes this is hard to accept, but well, everybody moves on, right? :) You've got so much to offer and she's too. (sorry for making wrong assumptions, I only wrote based on what I read in your previous posts) Gomene.. =)

Ah, it reminds me a quote that I read from my friend's blog this morning. Here it is, " sesuatu yang menarik ataupun menyedihkan tidak akan bisa dilupakan .. suatu saat akan teringat bahkan diingatkan kembali oleh orang lain ... hal seperti itu tidak akan bisa dihindari .. lebih baik dihadapai saja.. ada baiknya jadikan semua pengalaman itu memory yang berharga .."

Just weep whatever you need to weep about, get your ass up and move on ^^

Btw, I don't quite agree with, "If she's happy, I'm happy." There ain't no such thing as that. We all knew about it pretty well, didn't we? It must be one of them get hurt and then they slowly learn how to accept the facts. So, whatever with "I'm happy as long as you're happy" --- read: bullshit. hehhe..

Probably you should focus in taking more photographs haha. Times when one gets really emotional, that's the time when the creativity kicks in ;)

Ah I betta get the hell outta here, too much bull bull already haha..