What is it with today? I feel...
you know. that old feeling i often get. maybe it's the weather. It's dark and rainy looking today... but who am I kidding? If I had to put a reason why I feel like shit today it would be because I'm missing something. someone. Maybe not anyone in particular (although I'm pretty sure there's that too), but as I was sitting at my desk in the office, listening to my really kickass mp3 player, I couldn't help but think back to the past couple of years. I'm done going on and on about I-Used-To-Be-Happy-But-I'm-Not-Anymore. I'm not unhappy. just lonely.

But.

coming home from the office, heading up to my room, a smile is etched upon my face as Shinta has prepared a little something for my nearly-there birthday.

I guess I'm not that lonely after all. :)

Sony NW-HD5
I recently got hold of this little beauty, a Sony NW-HD5. It's the latest addition to Sony's NW-HD series, their iPod killers. I had always wanted an iPod, and came close to getting one before i found this one. I won't review it, since there's a bunch on the internet anyway, all i know is that to anyone considering an (20GB)ipod-like mp3 player, and who doesn't want to get an ipod because of its looks, the i heartily recommend th NW-HD5. Battery life of 30-40 hours (compared to the 12hrs the ipod offers), better sound (at least, that's what they tell me) and you know...i'm kinda glad i'm not a new ipod zombie.


now on to what i really wish i would get for my birthday:



Grado SR-60
Let's just say, I really, really, really want them.
I don't consider myself a real audiophile, but man I can't stand mediocre quality. I can't find any quality headphones that don't cost a fortune, sound good, and look cool. Most of the headphones i find either sound bad or just look bad. the Grado SR-60s, i think, look mighty cool. yeah, they're bulky and retro, but that's exactly why i think they look great.

I didn't win the Coldplay tickets on ebay, much to my relief and dissapointment. Relieved that I won't have to pay €60+ to watch them all the way in Arnhem, alone. Dissapointed because...well. it's Coldplay.

but Green Day is a classic too. So as long as Yustian doesn't forget to buy the tickets today, book me on the 7th for Green Day at Ahoy.

so on the 7th of July there'll be 2 concerts I really want to see. question is, which one will it be? Green Day? (at Ahoy) or Coldplay? (Gelredome)

I'm inclining towards Coldplay, but it depends on whether or not I win the tickets on ebay, and if any of the others want to watch coldplay. I'd feel terrible if I went to watch Coldplay after promising the others that we'd go see Green Day.

what to do!

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I’ve been trying hard to meet you 'cause I don’t know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I’m so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Or do something that's never been done

So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all, let's talk
Let's talk, let's talk, let's talk

- "Talk" / Coldplay

Tiff's got me hooked on this song, not to mention, this song really speaks to both of us, in different phases of our lives, yet in similar situations.

I'd write more, but I'm damn hungry and I'm supposed to be working.

get X&Y, it's a great great album!

i found an old box of smacks :D
crunch crunch, yum yum.

goodness.

i'm starving, but i only have €0,20 in my pocket, and -€1 in my bank account..
I haven't really been out splurging this past month, so where did all my money go?
some of it went to feeding myself...with this whole monday-friday, 9-6, get home shops closed, weekends booked, no food to cook, i've been eating out a lot. not even that much. so where has most of my allowance gone? ah..it's out there, trust me...people owe me in excess of €500,...I'm counting the days till I see that money again...
in the meantime. i'm starving, the past 3 weeks have been non stop activity, and it isn't about to get any easier...tommorow, and sunday, i'll be working at the pasar malam besar in den haag...free food...i hope. need to figure out how to pay my ticket though...

so in two days i've only eaten 4 slices of bread... and tonight i party hard...a bowl of chocolate sprinkles... all for myself!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHA

THE F*** HAPPENED TO MY LIFE?

how utterly bored i am.

i can't wait to start a new life...leave this dreary monotony for another one.

So here I am once again
With my back against the wall
Afraid to show you
Afraid to tell you
I don't know you like I did
I've never been so alone
I've never felt so insecure
And now I don't know where I'm going
In my life I'm not so sure

I'm giving all I can
It wasn't enough
To keep you in my hands
Should I give up?
I try to understand
Was it ever enough?
I don't understand

phew!

after nearly a month of being closed due to traffic limit, my site(s) are up again.
i moved www.monochrome-photography.tk to a different server, so it shouldn't cause any more of these traffic limit suspensions anytime soon.

So what's been up lately...same old same old.

right now, missing certain emails from a certain little sister...if you're reading this, bales email donk! :D

i will expell my feelings and emotions in a little while. now...back to work.